Lil Nas X has long been labeled a “troll,” including the reception to his new Christian era. At times, he seems untouchable, capable of deflecting outrage with a few keystrokes. But behind the public personas and clever gags like the infamous “Satan shoes,” the openly queer rapper is, of course, a multi-faceted human being, coping with his own vulnerabilities.

The new HBO Original documentary Lil Nas X: Long Live Montero, which released its first trailer today, promises a more intimate look at the “Old Town Road” singer, covering everything from his sexuality and struggles with anxiety to the pressures of his first world tour.

“There are still parts of myself that I am learning to accept,” he says in the trailer, “but I’m getting closer.”

Co-directed by Carlos López Estrada, an Oscar-nominated filmmaker whose credits include Raya and the Last Dragon, and cinematographer Zac Manuel, the film catalogs Lil Nas X’s Montero tour, capturing an era of the musician’s career when he was dealing with both conservative Christian backlash over his campy use of Satanic imagery and homophobia within the broader rap scene.

Memorable Montero moments include his onstage same-sex kiss at the BET Awards, his three-song Grammys montage, and, of course, the legendary music video for “Montero (Call Me By Your Name)” in which he gives Satan a lap dance. That single debuted at the top of the Billboard charts, following up on the mega-success of “Old Town Road” which took pole position on the Hot 100 for a staggering 19 weeks.

Featuring behind-the-scenes footage and interviews with the artist himself, Long Love Montero should offer us a glimpse not at the record-shattering gay artist with a Teflon reputation, but at the 24-year-old from Georgia who found himself at the center of pop culture.