Billionaire Elon Musk just shared about the “inner demons” that made him have foolish ideas at the age of 12.

In a recent interview with the New York Times (USA), billionaire Elon Musk said he had been in crisis with questions about the meaning of existence since he was 12 years old: “ Is my life meaningless? What do I exist for?

Those thoughts once made Musk feel like his life seemed meaningless when he couldn’t find a satisfactory answer. The crisis was so high that the teenager had foolish thoughts.

Billionaire Elon Musk said his mind is always like a fierce storm (Photo: Page Six).

Now, looking back 40 years later, at the age of 52, the world’s richest billionaire realizes that the content we read every day has a huge impact on our thoughts and perceptions.

At a time when he felt in crisis, Musk was reading a number of books that had religious and philosophical content but did not carry a positive message. That caused the teenager to have many negative thoughts.

Later, when reading books about outer space, Musk’s feelings began to change.

Looking back, Musk believes that for those who still ask themselves questions about the meaning of existence, the answer may not lie in simple answers. On the contrary, we can expand the scope of the question to reach broader levels.

“My life at the age of 12 was of course still very limited. Going forward, I realize that as we expand and increase our awareness, we will be able to ask ourselves big questions and find convincing answers for ourselves. When my mind turned to outer space, there I found meaning for my life“, said Elon Musk.

The billionaire also said that his mind is always like a fierce storm. Thoughts and ideas flow endlessly like a fountain. When asked if the storms of thoughts help the billionaire feel happy, Musk answered frankly that no.

Musk does not often talk about his childhood experiences (Photo: Page Six).

“I think in some ways, I was born with those characteristics, but it was made worse because I had a difficult childhood, to be honest. like that,” Musk said.

Musk doesn’t often talk about his childhood experiences, but his mother – model Maye Musk (75 years old) – has repeatedly shared about her marriage with her ex-husband – Mr. Errol Musk (77 years old).

Mrs. Maye said her husband was a man with a violent personality and had abused his wife when they were still married. These things happened when Elon Musk was a child.

“I married a husband with an aggressive personality, my ex-husband promised that he would change after we got married. But in fact, he only got worse.

Once my husband beat me at a crowded meeting. My friends had to take me to my mother’s house. My mother did not know that I was abused in my marriage,” recalled Maye.

The billionaire experienced a psychological breakdown in December 2022 (Photo: Page Six).

Besides sad memories about his family, Elon Musk was also bullied in high school. In his latest interview, Musk said that even in the happiest moments as a child, he always felt a smoldering anger inside him.

“Later, I exploited my inner demons to create productivity at work. However, I don’t always go in the right direction”, Musk shared.

The billionaire experienced a psychological breakdown in December 2022. According to author Ben Mezrich – who specializes in researching Elon Musk’s biography, during this collapse, Elon Musk locked himself in his office. Musk’s expressions at that time made some of his employees very worried.

Billionaire Elon Musk’s mother knew her son was a prodigy thanks to a sign…

Mrs. Maye Musk once revealed that she knew her son was a prodigy since Elon Musk was 3 years old. She remembers that when she registered her child to attend a kindergarten, when she shared with the teacher that her child was a prodigy, the teacher… “wide-eyed” with surprise.

Elon Musk often shares with his mother about his plans at work (Photo: Page Six).

“Elon was quite shy as a child, so people didn’t see his genius side. I’m the only person Elon can talk to comfortably, so I know that well. From a young age, Elon liked to use logic to talk to me and remember everything that was going on around him,” Mrs. Maye recalled.

However, Mrs. Maye herself never thought her son could reach his current level of success: becoming the richest billionaire in the world and building a successful career in many fields.

Elon Musk often shares with his mother about his plans at work. Previously, Musk confided to his mother about his plan to pursue the development of solar energy technology, electric cars, rockets, spaceships…

Whenever she heard her son share such big plans, she always advised him to give up and give himself a break, because she saw that her son was working too hard and might fall. into a state of prolonged stress. But Elon Musk often doesn’t listen to his mother.

We all have seen the results, Elon Musk has become the richest billionaire in the world.

After achieving some success at work, Elon Musk understood that he could no longer avoid the media (Photo: Page Six).

After all, Mrs. Maye concluded: “My son needs to be free to pursue everything he wants. I once advised Elon to back down from many of the plans he set out, but not once did he listen to me, we have all seen the results.”

Ms. Maye said that at first, Elon Musk found it very difficult to communicate. This happened even during the years Elon Musk started building his career.

Because he had his younger brother Kimbal Musk accompanying him in his early work, at that time, Elon Musk did not have to directly dialogue with colleagues and partners. All dialogue was done by Kimbal.

After achieving some success at work, Elon Musk now understands that he can no longer avoid the media and meetings and conversations. Elon Musk finds himself needing to step into the “light” to build his personal image if he wants to continue developing his career.

Mrs. Maye recalled: “I remember the first time I read an interview directly answered by Elon, I was very shocked and called my son. to question. The son explained: ‘No one is willing to sell me rocket-making equipment because they don’t know who I am, I’ve never appeared in an interview, before Kimbal always did this for me. It’s time for me to appear’.